This is the fourth night in a row I've slept three hours. All week I've been going to bed at midnight and waking before three — not from excitement, but from the kind of exhaustion that feeds on itself. Insidious jet lag, sightseeing plans, and sessions in the European Football Clubs leadership programme. The lectures start at nine in the morning Boston time, which is eleven at night in Tokyo. I sit in a dark room listening to strategy presentations on the New York Liberty and pretend to be alert, while outside, Tokyo pulses with life and shows no sign of ever pausing.
Yesterday — Saturday — my wife and I went to watch Urawa Red Diamonds play in Saitama— something I may write about in a future post. We got back late in the evening. Wired from the game, I laid out everything on the bed: race vest, bib, gels, course map. On the map I marked the spots where my wife would be waiting to high-five me. I analysed the route — where I could hold pace, where I'd need to ease off. I finished building my playlist and took magnesium. Around midnight I fell asleep.
And woke up again at three. By four I knew I wouldn't get back to sleep. I lay with my face in the pillow and cried — just like that. I had 249 days of preparation behind me. Every two weeks I would review plans, spreadsheets, Garmin data. Race-day nutrition protocols, pace simulations, blood tests, VO₂ max testing. I would post stories and reels on social media to keep my goal publicly "accountable". I even received nine bespoke songs generated in Suno by my brother-in-law in an unlikely collaboration with my youngest daughter.
And now, six hours before the start, I'm lying sleepless in a room on the thirtieth floor of the Keio Plaza Hotel, howling into the pillow with frustration.































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